SYAA BAKAR'S

Maryam Nur Lailatul :)

2012-01-24T08:36:00.000-08:00

Awak, saya teringin sangat nak jumpa awak laaaaa :( Comelnya awak ni !

Abu Bakar Sidik's Family

2012-01-23T07:13:00.000-08:00

Izad's Wedding on the 15th of January 2012

Alhamdulillah the ceremony went off without a hitch :)

My family is my strength and weakness :')

Two hearts that beat as one :)

2012-01-22T09:25:00.000-08:00

Hello beautiful people :)

Mohd Zulhilmi Mohamed Kassim. I miss him, I really do :( Even though I see him everyday and I'm with him at every moment, yet I still miss him. Well when you think about it, how could you possibly miss someone constantly in your thoughts ? In your dreams ? Now that I've fallen in love with this guy so-called #biskut, let me tell you that IT IS POSSIBLE ! Y'know, I have a million thoughts going through my head at every second of every single day but then he's always my main thought and guess what ? Every other thought in my head revolves around him :)

Sayang, I don't know how I'd live without you. And I don't remember how it used to feel. Lemme tell you something. If I can't be with you, I don't want to be with anyone else :) You complete me and there's no longer an empty, meaningless space. I thank you for that Mohd Zulhilmi. You will never know how much you mean to me and how much you are needed. You are the reason I get out of my bed every day and you are the reason I have something to look forward to in my life. I'm looking forward to the day that I can finally tell the whole world that you are mine. I know that day will come sayang. InsyaAllah :')

May life keep on blessing us with each other's presence :)

Someone named Esha :)

2011-12-28T07:08:00.000-08:00

Hello beautiful people :)

Look I know you guys are annoyed with my posts. It has always been about my boyfriend right ? Haha. Well I am very sorry man ! *Sniff* Do you smell sarcasm ? Haha :p

So this post is specially dedicated for my beloved friend who means a lot to me and someone who changed my life completely :')

Esha Zubair. One of my close friends from UiTM Jengka. She's also known as my mother ! Haha. I've known her since semester two but then we only started to get closer in semester three ! Y'know, during that few months we've been through a lot of shit together ! She's like a best friend of mine ! I told her everything. EVERY SINGLE THING. I went to her room every single day and we always had our meals together. She taught me to be positive. She taught me to have some manners. She helped me in studies. She taught me everything that I just couldn't be bothered to learn before. And you know what ? She taught me the real meaning of friendship :') Eshaaaa you wanna know something ? I've been feeling lonely and empty since the day you left ! I died a little inside when you told me that you were leaving. I swear ;( I know I should be happy for you. You've already made your decision and as a friend I should try to understand. Right ? Well I am happy for you Esha and I am proud of you as well. Good luck and all the best my dear :)

"Thank you for the friendship you have offered. Rest assured that I'll treasure it in my heart and will always remember that once in my life, I've known someone like you :')"

Pray in Silence :)

2011-12-28T05:13:00.000-08:00

Surah Yaasin: Ayat 32 - 36

[36] Maha Suci Tuhan Yang telah menciptakan makhluk-makhluk semuanya berpasangan; samada dari yang ditumbuhkan oleh bumi atau dari diri mereka ataupun dari apa yang mereka tidak mengetahuinya.

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, jika yang demikian, Kau jadikanlah dia, Mohd Zulhilmi Mohamed Kassim, lelaki yang akan kukasihi serta jodohku di muka bumi ini sehinggalah saat Kau inginkan ku kembali kepadaMu. Ya Allah, dan jika benar dia bukan diciptakan untukku, maka Kau pertemukanlah jodohnya dengan sebaik-baik manusia yang mampu memberi kebahagiaan dalam hidupnya" :')

Well I couldn't agree more :)

2011-12-26T14:34:00.000-08:00

Ohmyyyy mother effin', ! She's smoking hot ! Undeniable right ? Oh God bless me -.-

Then my heart whispers

2011-12-24T13:14:00.000-08:00

I love you with a love that I can't adequately describe :)

Mi novio Mi vida :)

2011-12-22T08:35:00.000-08:00

Hello beautiful people :)

So what has everyone been up to ? Me ? Nothing much. I've been busy attending classes and spending time with the boyfriend :) Y'know for the past few weeks, I've been seeing him like every single day !Haha. Well I just can't get enough of you, sayang. I'm sorry but it's not entirely my fault right? :P

Haaaa let me tell you something. Jengka seems to be much more alive now ! Even I myself would prefer to stay at Jengka for weekends rather than going back home ! How cool is that ? Hahah. But one thing for sure. It is so not because of him. Trust me :P

Well thanks for giving me back my life Mohd Zulhilmi Mohamed Kassim ! You sweeten my sour days and you complete me, I must say :)

'He's my everything and no one can ever take his place' :)

The Story of AIMI :)

2011-11-27T12:16:00.000-08:00

Let the story begin.

Chapter 1 :

I started to notice Mohd Zulhilmi Mohamed Kassim when I was still in semester 1. And that was before we went for Business Camp. Yeah I felt “something” when I saw him for the first time. And it can never be explained by words :) Since I was in a relationship with #ASR , I didn't even bother to look for him or get to know him. But we did meet again at our faculty dinner. We even took a picture together. WITHOUT KNOWING EACH OTHER’S NAMES. Haha. I’ve never seen him since that day. But...

Chapter 2 :

Guess what ? I met him again at 'PPP'. Meeting him was fate ! No ? :P So what happened during that program ? When I first saw him stepped into the class room, I was like "fuck what is he doing here ? K now I can't barely breathe" hahaha. We were like looking at each other and wanted to talk but then I guess we were just too ego ? Haha. Right after the program ended, he came to me and asked 'You class mana eh ?'. I was like 'I budak class F. Why ?' and he was like 'Oh nothing'. Well SEDIKIT HAMPA DI SITU. Hahaha.

Chapter 3 :

I added him on facebook like one or two days after that program ended. I was like “ Should i ? This is embarrassing. No ? Malu wehhhhhh”. However my friends told me that it’s okay for me to add him and get to know him AS A FRIEND. Haha. And know what ? I was like effin’ excited when he posted “thanks for the add mate :)” on my wall ! Like can you imagine how happy I was ?! Haha. Since then we started to chat on facebook. For about a month, maybe ? :)

Chapter 4 :

A few days before Arabic Night, he told me that he’s gonna be busy and couldn’t come online. How sad :( but then A FRIEND OF MINE told him that i was having a hard time and she asked him to call me. So that’s how he got my number. He didn’t even ask for it k -.- That moment when he gave me a call, I was like “am i dreaming ? :O” Haha. We started to text each other the day after the Arabic night like almost every single day. You just have no idea how excited I was every time i received a text from him ! everyone noticed that big smile on my face k :D

Chapter 5 :

One of my favourite chapters. This is when we started to share our feelings by posting statuses about each other :P We even started to do weird things. Such as ? I made a dessert for him. UNBELIEVABLE RIGHT ? I know -__- And just guess what did I get in return ? Cupcakes made by himself ! Awwhh my baby is such a sweetheart :D Oh and not to forget that we also started to hang out together :D We went to ‘bazar ramadhan’ together and for once I even skipped class just to meet him ! Hahaha. We also studied together during study week. But not just two of sure for sure la kan. As our ‘personal assistant’, Yana had to follow us wherever we wanted to go. Even if we just wanted to withdraw money, she had to follow us ! But now we don’t need you anymore. Thank you slut :) Hahaha. Kidding !

Chapter 6

The last chapter. Semester break started. He was busy with basketball while I was busy working and hanging out with my friends. But know what ? Despite our busyness we still had time for each other. We were like texting each other all day long and talking on the phone for hours ! You know that feeling you get when you don't know if the person you like, likes you ? To be honest that’s how I felt at that time. Know why ? Because he never really confessed his feelings to me and I was puzzled by his words. So I kept wondering. Well it’s obviously a lie if I say that we’ve never fought. We did actually. For several times. Haha. So the climax of our story is when he told me not to wait for him anymore. Remember that ‘Just Go’ post ? It was meant for him. So what happened after that ? To make it short, he told me that he felt empty when I wasn’t around and he just realized that he wanted me more than a friend. The moment that I waited for almost 5 months came and finally he proposed me on the 15th of November 2011. So that's how our love story began :)

Learn to wait for the perfect time, so that you may discover that all the pain found in waiting has a magnificent and awesome purpose :)

Every ending is a new beginning :)

2011-11-18T09:18:00.000-08:00

How do I live without them ? :')

Ariff Karim

Muhammad Azrol (O'oi)

Kamarol Kahar
I spent the last day of my semester break with them. It was memorable !

Hello beautiful people :)

It seems that one and a half month of semester break has finally come to the end. Time really flies huh ? :) Well what I can say is, I really had a great time with my friends. I enjoyed working at Balloon Buzz Party Centre with Najwa and Myra even though it was only for 10 days. I spent the rest of my time doing nothing ! Lifeless ? Yeaah I know. Pfft -.- But hey ! Guess what ? For the first time I feel like I can't wait to go back to Jengka ! Anddddd it's TOMORROW ! Yayyy :D See you guys soon :)

'The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart'

When I think of you ;)

2011-11-17T09:00:00.000-08:00

Stop wondering, just ask :)

2011-11-17T01:20:00.000-08:00

He asked me "Can you get over your ex ?"

Well here's the answer sayang.

Remember this okay. I've moved on and now he's just an old love turned memory. But you. You're my present and future. Andd I'm forever yours. No one else matters :) I love you Mohd Zulhilmi Mohamed Kassim ♥

The Boyfriend

2011-11-15T06:54:00.000-08:00

Mohd Zulhilmi Mohamed Kassim ♥

Thanks for being there when I needed a shoulder to lean on, for patiently listening to my problems. I just want you to know how happy I am to have you in my life and I thank Allah for that. Thank you for the love and the joy you bring. You've changed my life :)

You're the only boyfriend who gives my heart some excitement and thrills. When I'm with you I feel like I'm out of control! You taught me how to handle life seriously, you taught me how to solve my problems and to face it. Anddd I know that I wouldn't shed any tears from now on :')

I love you, sayang ♥

'You are a blessing in disguise' :)

Get used to it :P

2011-11-11T04:08:00.000-08:00

Eh #biskut lemau. Awak kena tengok muka 'merajuk + nak menangis' ni selalu tau nanti ! Hahahaha

Once in a lifetime :B

2011-11-10T06:44:00.000-08:00

Have you ever thought about it ?

2011-11-10T03:55:00.000-08:00

Oh Lord ! Can you see how lucky they are ? Sometimes I wonder how does it feel to be one of the beautiful and rich people :) Some people say that inner beauty is more important than superficial looks but don't you think they are all hypocrites ? Well I find it kinda funny :) People say such things just because they don't want to sound like an asshole. What say you ?

We aren't perfect. But Allah is :)

I want this !

2011-11-10T00:30:00.000-08:00

A story of Me and You :)

2011-11-10T00:27:00.000-08:00

'Just Go'

2011-11-09T00:52:00.000-08:00

I can't do anything when you've already made up your mind. But remember this. You forgot about me. I have feelings too. You made your decision without asking me what I really want. And you know what ? That sounds like my feelings don't count and thank you for that :)

Bear this in mind ;

I know what I want. I know who can makes me happy. I know there will always be a risk of me getting hurt again. I know that you're not perfect. I know there's always someone better than you. But I know I deserve you and Allah knows that too :)

I've tried my best but if it makes you happy then just go. I'll be waiting for you in my dreams. Forever :)

Wanting you happy was always more important than wanting you :)

Things we can't buy with money :)

2011-11-08T08:42:00.000-08:00

Hello beautiful people :)

It's been a while since I met my bestfriends, all of them together :) Only God knows how much I missed them !

#1 While waiting for them to pick me up. Can you see that 'I'm so excited' face ? HAHA :B

#2 So Najwa bought something from this shop and we politely forced the salesgirl to take our picture. Hee :P

Take some pictures when hangout ? It's compulsory when it comes to us :P

Karaoke session with the girls :)

Hey look ! So this is our Papa :) Handsome much ? Well sorry girls. He's gonna be my future husband pretty soon :P

Mohamad Hudzwan. My soulmate ♥ HAHA nahhh this is Erma's brother. It's been ages since we last met ! Dude you know I'm always available if you're looking for someone. Eh ? Haha :P

Mama cooked my favourite dish ! So this is what we called 'gulai ikan'. Yummy :D

Alhamdulillah. I'm blessed to have them in my life :)

A message from 'Fat Pig' :)

2011-11-07T09:16:00.000-08:00

Amardeep Singh Randhawa. I'm sorry for letting you down this time. But I don't want you to wait for me anymore. You're only gonna hurt yourself more. Please don't do that. We started as friends so I hope we still can be. You're such a good guy and I know you can find someone better. I will always pray for your happiness. Be happy and get well soon dog :)

Like it or love it :P

2011-11-07T08:33:00.000-08:00

Dude. Loooooook ! My hair isn't black anymore. Hihi :P Oh please tell me you like it ! I know you do. Right ? :B

2011-11-07T08:29:00.000-08:00

I caught myself smiling for no reason. But then I realized i was thinking about you ;)

Sweet childish days :)

2011-11-04T07:20:00.000-07:00

So ini laa kembar saya, Nur Amira binti Mohmed Amin :)
Okay saya rindu budak ni. SANGAT ! Actually she's my cousin.
THEBESTCOUSINEVER :)
Dulu masa kecil, family suka pakaikan kami baju yang sama so that nampak macam kembar :) *as you can see in the picture above*
But look. Nampak sangat beza bila dah besar ni kan ? Well she's much more prettier I guess :)
Well Mira, if you're reading this now, I just want you to know that I miss you so much and I wish we could spend more time together. Like seriously maaan :(

This is for you, Abu Bakar Sidik :)

2011-11-04T04:37:00.001-07:00

For the third time. Alhamdulillah :)

Papa.

I promise you ;

#1 I will always put studies as my priority.

#2 No matter what happens, I'll be one of the recipients of the Chancellor's Award

#3 I won't do stupid things anymore.

#4 I won't skip my meals no more.

5# I will try to cut down on coke.

6# I will try not to skip classes.

7# I will change my attitude. Yeah I need to stop being childish. No more sulking -_-

8# I will start saving money and stop wasting it on unnecessary stuffs.

9# I will be a good daughter, good sister and a good muslim.

10# I will take care of our family. Especially Mama :')

Ever been the third person in a relationship ?

2011-11-02T00:15:00.000-07:00

Hey girl,
I know that there was something going on between the two of you but then I just came up out of nowhere and screwed up everything. Trust me I didn't know. I've hurt your feelings and I'm really sorry for that :(

Everything has changed since he left :(

2011-11-01T06:10:00.000-07:00

Hj Amin's Family

I wasn't there. So don't bother finding me in this picture :)

This. Is. Pointless.

2011-11-01T03:04:00.000-07:00

Yes I'm childish and a lil bit wildish. So what ?

A heart is not a toy :(

2011-10-31T09:42:00.000-07:00

Someone like you :)

2011-10-31T09:39:00.000-07:00

Buy for me pretty pleaseeeeeee :(

2011-10-28T04:33:00.000-07:00

Someone I used to call #Nescafe :')

2011-10-27T19:53:00.000-07:00

Dude I miss you loads ! I miss our long phone conversations, our endless laughter, our dumb fights, I miss the way we would always plan our future. I miss everything about you ! Where have you been ? Awak dah lupa saya ke ? Will you ever read my blog again ? Please let me know if you did. 'Milo' ada banyak benda nak cerita kat awak, tau tak ? :(

Favourite Dream :)

2011-10-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

Although I may not see him as often as I like. He's still my first and last thought, everyday and night ;)

PRICELESS

2011-10-18T06:53:00.000-07:00

My father's side

Hj Mohd Amin & Nenek (I don't know her real name)

My mother's side

Raja Madun & Raja Samiah

Saya rindu mereka. Kini hanya tinggal kedua orang nenek saya ni je :') Dulu saya sangat rapat dengan atok saya ni. Terutamanya arwah Ata (Raja Madun). Masa kecil dulu saya tinggal dengan dia. Arwah Ata dan Maktok yang jaga saya sampai saya darjah empat :) Antara kenangan yang saya tak boleh lupa masa tinggal dengan mereka, saya selalu kena bangun pagi and buat kerja rumah. Sapu sampah, teman Maktok pergi pasar, tolong masak, basuh pinggan and buatkan kopi untuk arwah Ata. Haa dulu arwah Ata la yang ajar kami 'mengaji'. Tapi sekejap je sebab dia tak larat nak layan karenah saya dan cousins yang lain. Benda yang saya tak boleh lupa, dia akan bagi 50 sen kalau tolong dia buat kerja. Masa tu 50 sen macam RM50 okay -__- Family sebelah mama selalu puji saya sebab saya cucu yang paling rajin. Haha. But semua dah berubah. Makin besar saya dah jadi makin malas :( Mungkin sebab tiada siapa nak marah saya. Dulu arwah Papa ada, dia la yang selalu tegur tapi sekarang ? Hmm.

Haaa tentang atok sebelah Papa pula, saya panggil dia dengan gelaran 'Tok Min' :) Atok saya kulit dia macam cina kan ? Haaa itu sebab keluarga sebelah Papa saya memang kulit macam tu. Cuma saya & adik beradik yang lain je kulit lain sikit. Ikut Mama kot :) Okay berbalik pada Tok Min, dulu masa kecil, Papa selalu bawa balik kampung dekat Merlimau, Melaka. Tok Min sumpah comel k. Dia atok yang paling caring sekali. Selalu buat lawak dan luangkan masa dengan cucu-cucu dia. Masa tu saya masih rapat lagi dengan cousins yang lain. Cuma sekarang bila dah besar, semua dah berubah. Masing-masing buat hal sendiri je :/ Oh ye, yang sebelah atok tu nenek saya. Nenek tiri saya :) Dia nenek tiri paling baik yang saya pernah jumpa. Masakan 'Asam Pedas' dia sumpah terbaik k. Well nama pun orang Melaka kan. Haha. Oh and sebab tu juga la mulut kami sekeluarga ni agak kasar. Cakap sentiasa menyakitkan hati and cakap lepas. but hey you can't blame us :P Okay berbalik kepada cerita mereka ni, I just wanna say that I miss them and I wish I could turn back time :(

May their souls rest in peace. Al-fatihah :')

May God bless them :)

2011-10-04T10:41:00.000-07:00

Aizat Bohari & Najwa Dayana

Myra Atiqah & Iskandar Zack

Adib Abd Aziz & Erma Qistina

Abdul Ghani & Amaliena Azhar

It seems like I'm the only one who still doesn't have a partner ? K boo me ! Haha. Oh and to these gentlemen, please take care of my babies and treat them well k ? Or else I'll beat you up ! Get me ? Good :)

I miss you, brother :)

2011-10-04T07:57:00.000-07:00

Does anyone recognize him ? He's my third brother, Wan Idzuan bin Abu Bakar Sidik.We used to be so close back then but now we barely talk to each other. I wonder what happened ? :'(

There is a little boy inside the man who is my brother. Oh, how I hated that little boy. And how I love him too :(

F R I E N D S

2011-10-03T05:16:00.000-07:00

Arina Mustafa, Maisarah Aziz, Adee Suryanie, Nurliyana Izyan

Maizatul Aliah & Esha Zubair

Aren't they pretty ? Well they are the coolest people on the planet ! And I love them to bits :)

“It is by chance that we met, by choice that we became friends ♥ ”

The University of Melbourne

2011-10-02T08:14:00.000-07:00

Guys ! This is the place where I'm planning to pursue my studies after diploma ! InsyaAllah :) So what do you think ?

Bachelor of Commerce (Major in Finance) sounds pretty good right ? :p

A special message for you :)

2011-10-01T10:42:00.000-07:00

Hai Encik #biskut :)

Saya rasa awak pun dah tahu yang you're the famous #biskut kan ? Yeah famous. All my followers on twitter know about this hashtag. But only my friends know who is #biskut :)

So the reason why I'm writing this is because I would like to tell you some important things which I just couldn't be brave enough to tell you on the face. Haha

#1 I always think that I don't meet your standards :/

#2 I'm smart. But I can never be as smart as you :/

3# I always feel jealous of you. Why is it that your carry marks are always higher than mine ? -__-

4# Hey boy. You did mention once about family background right ? well fyi I'm not rich. I'm just from an ordinary family. Trust me :)

5# I always wonder if I ever cross your mind ? You should know that you're always on my mind. All the time :)

6# You're not perfect. But who cares ? :)

7# Don't you ever think that you're not good enough for me k. Just don't :)

8# I don't really know about your past or what have you done before but I believe you do have your own reason. Am I right ? :)

9# Did you ever think about distance ? I bet you did right ? Well distance doesn't matter dude. It's always been a matter of trust :)

10# I don't know if you feel the way I do, but if you don't, please leave. That's all I'm asking. Don't hurt me. I've had enough before :(

11# I don't know whether I should keep waiting for you or just move on. So please let me know :)

That's all I guess. I hope one day you'll read this post #biskut :)

Never say you don't have a chance with someone when you haven't asked :)

My heart just can't take it anymore

2011-09-03T08:05:00.000-07:00

I miss each and everyone of them in these pictures :(

Time really flies right? I miss the old times when we used to skate together and stuff :(

I don't know where is him right now. Even though we don't mean anything to you anymore,you know what Adam ? I'll always pray for your happiness. Be happy :')

Maaaa. Einaaaaa. I miss us. I really do :'(

Azim Muzani. Does anyone remember him ? I miss this guy. We used to be so close but now we don't talk like we never knew each other. What happened ? :(

We're best friends since I was form 3 ! Amalina Ali and Khaleeda Aqeelah, we should catch up soon girls ! I don't care !

Wan Azhar. The best brother in the world ! God should've taken me. Not him :'(

Papa. I miss you. I think about you every single day. I wish you could hear me ! I'm dying to talk to you :(

Ya Allah. If there's nothing left for me in this world, I'm begging You, Ya Allah, please take me home. My dad and my brother are waiting for me. They need me more than anyone else :'(

They are mine. Be jealous :)

2011-09-01T08:04:00.000-07:00

Erma Qistina, Wan Nur Nabilah, Myra Atiqah & Najwa Dayana

2011

2011-08-27T23:34:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.

First of all, ni hao ma ? I hope everyone's doing great :)

So let's start with 2011 updates.

Well so many things have changed for the past few months. I'm no longer someone's girlfriend. Yeah you're right, I am single ! But there's nothing to celebrate because it wasn't supposed to end like this :')
Andd yeah I prefer not to write about him anymore. I have my own reason :)*okay next ?

So let's move on to the next chapter :)

#biskut

Guess what ? Everyone keeps wondering and curious to know who the hell is #biskut ? haha. Okay let's make this thing clear alright ? #biskut is a guy. He's a 'friend' of mine. Well I can't mention his name. Sorry guys ? :P

Oh and why #biskut ? Well we used to contact each other through facebook ONLY. The conversation never ends ! HAHA. I gave the nickname to him because he's so unpredictable ! He'll do whatever he wants and disappear just like that. So that is why his nickname is #biskut. Seriously, no joke :)

Hmmmm. What can I say about #biskut ? For me he's totally different from other guys that I've met before. For example he never shows any interest in me but yet he's like a magnetic force okay ! I just can't walk away from him. BOO ME ! To be honest, I've liked him ever since I saw him. And that's when I was still in semester 1 ! HAHAHA. Oh please don't make assumptions alright ? I didn't cheat on my ex ! There's a difference between like and love ! Get that ?

Now we're still texting each other. Almost every day. I myself not sure what is my status right now. I don't even know 'what are we' actually. Haha. Are we just friends or more than that ? Only you can answer that question, #biskut :)

Next is about final exams !

I haven't prepared yet ! Cool isn't ? Haha. However I'm still proud of myself. I DID STUDY FOR TESTS AND QUIZZES FOR THIS SEMESTER ! Aren't you proud of me ? :P

9th of October 2011. Please don't come :(

That will be the last day in Jengka for me ! Well, I used to hate Jengka. But it doesn't seem that I still do. I love Jengka ! I mean not Jengka as in the place ! HAHA. I love my friends there. I don't want to leave Jengka. Especially after I met #biskut :(

But he did say that study is more important ! So I'll stick to the plan where I'm gonna apply for the fast-track program. I'll be waiting for you in Malacca, insyaAllah :)

P/S : #biskut thanks to you I've been smiling a lot lately :)

Every story has it's ending

2011-06-03T22:33:00.000-07:00

This is so hard to say, but I have to let go. It's not that I don't love you, because you know I do but something has changed between me and you. I just can't take it anymore. I'm hurting so bad :(

They complete me :)

2011-04-18T11:12:00.000-07:00

Maisarah Aziz ♥

Maizatul Aliah ♥

Omagaddd they are insane ! I love them :)

Maisarah Aziz : She's lovable man ! And beautiful tooo ♥ Even though we've known each other for only a couple of months, it feels like years y'know ! I can talk to her about anything. She doesn't judge me ! That's what I like about her. She reminds me of my best friends :) Thank you, Sarah ! *hugs* :)

Maizatul Aliah : The coolest friend ever ! She's like a clone of Amalina Ali ! She doesn't care what people think or say about her. She's such a sweet girl but can be annoying sometimes ! :P But still me love her to death ♥

The thought of you brings a smile to my face :)

2011-04-18T10:13:00.000-07:00

NICHKHUN HORVEJKUL ♥
Awwwww I'm really addicted to this guy :)

#ASR

2011-04-02T10:45:00.000-07:00

You know you mean everything to me.
You're the reason that I breathe.
You're everything I ever wanted and hoped for.
If only you felt the same way I feel about you :(
Please don't hurt me anymore.
Everyone tells me that I should forget about you but I can't.
Look, I don't want to be the the girl that keeps crying about the same things.
Please tell me what should I do ?
Cause my heart is aching, so badly :(
It really hurts knowing that you don't even care about me.
About how I feel.
Please stop.
I've had enough.
I'm begging you.
Please stop :'(

Jar of hearts :'(

2011-03-27T08:40:00.000-07:00

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

A

2011-02-28T04:44:00.000-08:00

You see me every time, never see me smile,
Some days I’m lonely, going crazy in my mind,
He leaves me every night by my self,
He messed my heart into the pieces that it melt,
He doesn’t really care how I feel,
I try to move on,all I feel is fear,
He told me that am worth much more
I just can’t walk out that door :(

Away

2011-02-26T22:10:00.000-08:00

My Facebook account is now officially deactivated due to some personal problems. But I will activate it back once my problems are solved. Till then, take care. Especially you :)

BFF ♥

2011-02-05T03:39:00.000-08:00

Our birthday celebration was totally awesome ! We had a great time together andd know what ? I love guys loads :)

There is nothing worth the wear of winning, but laughter and the love of friends.

Back when life was perfect :(

2011-02-02T05:51:00.000-08:00

Awak tahu tak macam mana rasa bila kita lihat keluarga orang lain sempurna ? LIHATLAH ! Keluarga saya pernah sempurna. PERNAH :'(

N E S C A F E :)

2011-01-28T07:49:00.000-08:00

So topik kita untuk hari ini. ENCIK NESCAFE :)

Nak tahu nama penuh dia ke ? Errr sorry. Memang tak dapat la kan. Hahaha. Okay biar saya mulakan dengan detik perkenalan kami. Dia merupakan kawan kepada kawan saya. Masa pertama kali saya nampak dia rasa macam nak tampar, sepak terajang je. Tapi saya tak buat sebab kesian. Muka dia tu suci sangat. HAHAHAHA. Eh gurau jela :)

Masa pertama kali jumpa budak ni kitorang tak bertegur pun. Dia ni memang. Suka bajet cool macam semua orang nak tegur dia. Memang tak la kan ? Tolong la sedar diri. Hahaha. Si gay ni orangnya penyabar. SANGAT KOT. Untuk pengetahuan semua saya ni memang asyik lupa je nak reply text orang. Nasib la budak yang kononnya baik ni sentiasa ingatkan saya. Sikit sikit bagi WL. Konon comel la ? Memang pun. HAHAHA.

Oh lagi satu tentang budak ni dia sentiasa tahan setiap hari kena bahan dengan saya. Macam-macam awak kena kan ? Gay, gigolo, apam pink, and apa lagi eh ? OH PACKAGE 3 IN 1 awak tu. Nak saya mention ke ? Bodoh, pekak and gagap. Agak melampau ke saya tulis macam ni awak ? Tak kan ? Sabar eh :) Hahahaha.

Saya tak ingat la dah berapa lama saya kawan dengan awak tapi saya rasa awak dah boleh naik pangkat kot. Jadi pendengar setia masalah saya. Nak tak ? Saya tau awak nak :P hahaha. Oh budak ni jugak kuat makan macam saya ! COOL KAN ? teman melantak la ni ? :) Haaaa one more thing about him is DIA SUKA MATHS ! Sama macam saya la. Sepp sikit ! Haha

Apa lagi eh tentang diri awak ? Awak pemalas, kuat makan, suka membazir masa, cepat emosi, oh and yeah KUAT INGATAN ! semua benda yang saya cakap awak ingat kan ? Sumpah hebat. But itu jela kehebatan awak pun. Jangan bangga sangat. HAHAHA.

Err cukup la setakat ni kot. Saya takut dia nangis la baca post ni. Kesian dia. On the phone kena bahan, kat blog kena, facebook kena. Ish kesian betul la dilahirkan jadi awak kan ? Opps sorry rasanya saya terbahan awak lagi kan ? HAHAHA.

Lastly saya nak cakap TERIMA KASIH sebab awak sudi jadi kawan saya. Seronok berkawan dengan orang yang mempunyai "package lengkap" macam awak. HA HA HA :P

Me ♥ Nineteen

2011-01-14T05:48:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to me ! :)

I'm officially NINETEEN on the 12th of January 2011. Very happy :)

I DIDN'T CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR. Okay now that's really sad. Right ? -.-

But anyways, I would like to thank everyone who wished me ♥

I ♥ Gossips

2011-01-14T05:40:00.000-08:00

Status ni menimbulkan banyak kontroversi. HAHAHAHA. Okay let's make this thing clear for you guys out there aite. MOHAMAD HATIM is so not my boyfriend :) Hahaha. Lelaki ini hak cipta terpelihara ZATY IBRAHIM ye :)

It's a brand new year :)

2011-01-06T06:48:00.001-08:00

HO YEAH ! :)

I've been very busy lately so yeah I don't have much time for blogging. But I guess I do now ? :P

Semester break was awesome! I had fun driving around like a crazy bitch. And of course with ma bitches la. who else right ? hahahaha. oh and you too :)
I spent one and a half month doing nothing. All I did was SHISHASHISHASHISHA. One word for me, LIFELESS ! Hahaha :D

Err where I went for NYE this year ? The curve -.- Ooemgee everyone was there but I didn't get to meet anyone because of fuckin' maxis line ! AS USUAL NO COVERAGE EVERY 31ST OF DECEMBER ! Stupid ! But it's okay because I still had fun with Erma, Ewan, Damira and others :) I wish you were there, Adam. You will never be replaced. You should know that :'(

As you all know, my second semester has already started. Demmmmm -.- But let me tell you something good about it. I LOVE MY NEW TIMETABLE ! :) No more classes at night (Y) Oh yeah AYESHA HANIS IS NOT MY ROOMMATE ANYMORE. Fuck UPK. But it's okay, our rooms are not that far though. hahaha. Oh yeah. I wanna tell you all a secret !

I LOVE MY CLASSMATES ( especially AYESHA HANIS, MAI & HAZZY ) AND OF COURSE ZATY, TIQA AND AZA SO MUCH !

They are the reason why I don't want to leave UiTM Jengka. Thanks for everything babes ♥

A story of Red, Grey, Yellow & White :)

2010-12-11T07:02:00.000-08:00

Erma Qistina & Najwa Dayana ! Hey bitches, listen to me !

I want both of you to come back NOW ! I don't care about your KMP and Shahputra College !

Just leave everything behind and come back now. Can both of you do that for me ? Please.

SAYA RINDU AWAK BERDUA SANGAT-SANGAT, TAHU TAK ? :'(

20 facts about WNN :)

2010-12-10T10:55:00.000-08:00

1# Sometimes I get raging angry over little things.

2# My family and friends mean everything to me.

3# I'm allergic to seafood.

4# I have asthma. *Everyone knows, I guess ? HAHA

5# I hate cartoons -.-

6# I'm very lazy to study and go to class. Right Ayesha Hanis ? :)

7# Me like to sleep. I don't know why. Maybe because I get tired very easily.

8# I hate when people make plans and they cancel it on the last minute !

9# I like to watch hindi movies & telenovelas :) *Especially Mujhse Dosti Karoge and Rubi :)

10# I love guys who can make me laugh.

11# When people ask for my help, I don't really know how to say NO.

12# I hate when people talk bad things about my best friends. Don't you dare to say a word about them okay ?

13# For those who lepak with me for the first time might think that I'm anti-social. HAHA. No I'm not okay. I'm just shy :)

14# When I say I miss you, I really mean it.

15# I always cry before I go to sleep. Trust me. It's true.

16# I don't really like to watch movie. Why do we have to waste our money ? :)

17# I don't like kids. Except my nieces :)

18# I can't play games for more than 15 minutes. I don't know why. If more than that, I'll vomit. HAHA it's a fact. no kidding !

19# I don't go for short-term relationships. Know why ? Because when I love someone, I mean a guy, I love him with all my heart :)

20# I can't look at these pictures. I feel like vomiting. I AM SERIOUS.

I'm not weird, I'm limited editon ;)

Janji harus ditunaikan.

2010-12-10T04:53:00.000-08:00

Papa, aisya dapat Anugerah Dekan untuk semester ni. Aisya dah tunaikan janji tapi sayang papa tak sempat berkongsi kegembiraan ni dengan aisya :'(

M A

2010-12-06T10:20:00.000-08:00

Hey girl, I miss you :(

K

2010-12-05T22:26:00.000-08:00

Hello nescafe.

How are you today ? :)

Kenapa bukan saya yang diambil ?

2010-11-30T04:33:00.000-08:00

Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2008

Wan Nur Safiyyah Batrisyia

Wan Nur Qistina Maysara

Am :)

Kami sekeluarga sangat merindui kau.

Nak tau tak, perangai Safiyyah sekarang sama sangat macam kau dan papa. Sejak kau pergi, dia banyak cakap. Cakap macam orang tua. Haha. Setiap kali naik kereta dia mesti nak dengar lagu kegemaran kau, "Bunga Emas" . Haha. Dia selalu cakap "Isya rindu tok papa dengan daddy" :(

Masa raya haji hari tu, kitorang bawa Safiyyah menziarah kubur Papa dan kubur kau. Menitis air mata mama masa Safiyyah cakap " Daddy Isya datang ni. Sorry tadi Isya panggil daddy monyet" :'(

Masa aku cabutkan rumput kat kubur tu Safiyyah marah aku. Dia cakap " Aunty Aisya, sakitlah daddy isya" :(

Maysara pulak dah pandai jalan. Rambut dia dah panjang. Dua-dua manja dengan mama. Setiap kali aku tunjukkan gambar kau kat Maysara mesti dia tersenyum. Aku tahu dia rindu sangat dekat kau.

Kak gina pulak sihat walafiat. Janganlah risau tentang mereka. Aku akan jaga mereka sama macam kau jaga aku dulu. Aku akan jaga anak-anak kau macam anak kandung aku sendiri. Mereka tak akan kekurangan apa-apa pun. Aku janji ! Jangan risau tentang mereka, okay ? :'(

I wish I could tell you all this in person ;(

ULTRAMAN ISLAM

2010-11-28T09:15:00.000-08:00

Today's date : 29th of November 2010

I'm very happy right now ;)

Lepak with Najwa Dayana, Ayesha Hanis, Hazzy at bangsar yesterday. ( i mean few hours ago )

God I missed them so much. *lepas rindu aku kat korang :)

Oh cerita tak habis di situ.

Sambung lepak with Aizuddin Azmi dan Aizat Bohari at Restoran Ameer Ehsan. HAHAHA.

Then balik rumah terus online.

CHAT DENGAN ORANG GILA BERNAMA ______ :D

It's a secret laaa. Tak kan nak cerita everything ? hahahaha.

Oh he made me laugh like crazy weh. Serious sumpah tak tipu. Kan Ultraman Islam ? You know who you are. HAHAHA :)

So yeah this is the reason why I'm very happy right now. Haha.

THANKS TO ULTRAMAN ISLAM. YOU'VE JUST MADE MY DAY :)

When there's a will there's a way ♥

2010-11-27T22:10:00.000-08:00

Here are some moving on tips babyy ! HAHA ;

Never think twice about your decision. If it is your decision to breakup with him, avoid thinking of happy times with him.

Put your EX pictures and letters away, and the gifts out of sight. It makes it easier to settle into a life without them.

Don't keep thinking about your ex, by doing so you're just giving them more and more power to hurt you

Write top 5 things ur ex did that drove u nuts. A reminder what u WONT be missing & what u DONT have to tolerate anymore!

Be Optimistic. Think of happy thoughts! Now that you are single you are now ready to mingle !

Just think all the negative attitudes of your EX as well as the bad things he did to you !

Every day when you get up tell your self that “I am able to be happy with or without ( ASR ) in my life !

Relationship status changed :)

2010-11-27T01:40:00.000-08:00

Oh yes Imma single lady ! :D

For God sake this time for real okay. No more turning back. I've had enough :)

Yeah we were happy together. And he's a good guy. No doubt.

But it's just that we're not meant for each other. Bak kata orang melayu "Tak ada jodoh" :)

I have to move on. But now I'm scared to fall in love again, scared to fall fast. You know why ? Because every time I fall in love, it never seems to last :(

Hmm its okay. I'll learn from my past and I'll grow stronger :)

I promise you that I won't cry anymore. And even if I do, it's not because of you.

You just take care of yourself okay. I'll always pray for your happiness. Do pray for mine okay ? ♥

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.

Break your heart

2010-11-26T04:13:00.000-08:00

Let me ruin your life, let me break your heart, then I'll ask you why we can't be friends. Let me rip your world into little pieces, let me destroy who you thought you were, and then I'll ask if we can be friends.

Truth, Honesty and Lies

2010-11-24T23:48:00.000-08:00

Hey.

I'm not in a good mood now. That's why i feel like blogging. This is the only way for me to express my feelings. If you don't want to read then fuck off :)

I'm just tired of being nice to people who don't even care about me. I MEAN IT. I DON'T LIKE TO BE LIED TO. Just tell me the truth. I'm not the type of girl who gets angry for no reason. That's just not me. UNDERSTAND ? So stop lying to me !

One more thing. People always say "I'll do anything for you". But you know what, they don't really mean it ! Haha. People say such things just to comfort us. Lies and more lies :) Why am I so stupid to believe that ? HAHA.

OH GOD I HATE THIS KIND OF FEELING -.-

It hurts to realize that them people you thought you'd love for life don't love you as much as you thought they did and can do without you as if they never knew you at all.

Bila kesedihan sudah tidak mampu ku sembunyikan lagi,

2010-11-24T07:03:00.000-08:00

Saya merindui mereka. Saya sangat merindui kehadiran mereka. Saya rasa sunyi tanpa mereka. Saya lemah tanpa mereka. Kadang-kadang saya rasa saya kuat untuk menerima hakikat ini. Namun tidak ;(

Ya Allah, aku merayu kepadaMu. Pertemukanlah kami walaupun hanya sekadar di dalam mimpi kerana aku amat merindui mereka ;'(

I love the way you lie -.-

2010-11-24T06:09:00.000-08:00

ALASAN ? SAYA MUAK DENGAR SEMUA TU.

SAYA RASA MARAH.

SAYA RASA MACAM NAK MENGAMUK.

SAYA NAK MENJERIT.

SAYA BENCI DAN MENYAMPAH UNTUK MENDENGAR ALASAN BODOH.

STAY AWAY FROM ME -.-

FUCK OFF !

BEST FRIENDS DAY OUT ♥

2010-11-22T07:41:00.000-08:00

How do you know you've found your best friends ? Let me tell you. Its when you are ready to talk to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already :)
YEAH I'M TALKING THESE GIRLS :)

I ♥ Erma Qistina

I ♥ Najwa Dayana

I ♥ Myra Atiqah

How do I live without my best friends ?

2010-11-18T02:30:00.000-08:00

Location ; Murni Discovery USJ 9

Forever In My Heart :)

2010-11-15T08:08:00.000-08:00

Najwa Dayana, Erma Qistina, Myra Atiqah & Eina Azhar

Adib, Muhazim, Shah Mirza, Vimel Raj, Ahmad Syamim & Bhagwan Singh

Hey best friends.

It's been too long since the last post that i wrote about you guys right ? I'm sorry if you guys were offended.

So let's start with all these gentlemen first.

Muhazim : Crazy, honest and trustworthy. Love him much !

Vimel Raj : Always there for me. That's why I love him. But sometimes KECOH :P

Shah Mirza : He's such a good listener and *driver* too. HAHAHA. it's a joke shah.

Ahmad Syamim : Kind-hearted. He has a sweet smile :)

Bhagwan Singh : He looks innocent. Don't you ever believe him ! His cock stories make us laugh.

& NOT TO FORGET

Wan Adam : Our guardian angel. Will always love you adam :)

Wonder girls ;

Amalina Ali & Khaleeda Aqeelah
;We've been best friends since we were form 3. I love them so much.

Erma Qistina
; She's beautiful and gorgeous. THE BEST FRIEND I've ever had ! Loveyoubaby <3

Najwa Dayana
; Everyone loves her. Oh yeah for me she's hilarious man. Haha

Myra Atiqah
; Manja ? You can say whatever you want about her. But for me she's a sweet girl and I love her just the way she is. Fuck off haters !

Eina Azhar
; Sweet, understanding and a good listener too. How can I not love her ? :)

Look. I want all of you to remember this ;

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me ;)

Duit memainkan peranan penting !

2010-11-15T06:54:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Cuti semester telah pun bermula. Woah seronoknya aku. Hahaha. But ingatkan cuti ni dapat la tidur puas-puas. Haih tapi malangnya tidak. Asyik tak cukup tidur je aku ni. Semalam detik yang paling bersejarah dalam hidup aku. FOR THE FIRST TIME dalam hidup aku ni, mama benarkan aku drive kereta sendiri. Hahaha. Actually lesen dah lama ada tapi nak dapatkan kepercayaan tu susah gila. Walaupun kereta tu lagi besar daripada aku, still aku cuba memberanikan diri. Kalau tak sampai bila nak pandai kan. Alhamdulillah setakat ni selamat pergi dan selamat pulang. HAHAHAHAHA. Seronok drive sampai tak nak balik rumah weh. Bapak bodohnya aku ni. Hahaha. So berbalik kepada topic sentence aku tadi, apa nak buat cuti ni ? Sumpah aku dah jatuh miskin. Now tinggal RM 10 je dalam purse. Banyak la sikit daripada korang kan ? Haha. Oleh itu, aku plan nak kerja part-time. Not sure kat mana. Ada sesiapa nak ambil saya kerja ? Bosan la makan tidur kat rumah je. Nak keluar pun duit takde. ERGHHHHHH TENSION LA MACAM NI. Ni nak bagitau awal-awal, kalau nak ajak aku keluar make sure duit dalam poket penuh. Kalau tak jangan berani text/call aku. Hahaha.

Okay tu je aku nak cakap. Bye :D

What friendship is all about ?

2010-11-13T11:28:00.000-08:00

Done with my first semester. Oh yeah ! :D
It seems so fast time has passed.
My new friends are awesome. I love them to bits !
Especially Ayesha Hanis, Maizatul Aliah, Hazzy, Tiqa, Aza, Zaty and Maisarah :)
Can't wait to see them AGAIN :)

Oh yeah I made a video for you guys. Enjoy :)

How can I not love you ?

2010-11-13T07:38:00.000-08:00

Maizatul Aliah is the name given to her. She's cute, yes ? :)
I met her for the first time on the 26th of June 2010.
At that time, she was a stranger to me.
But now we are very close to each other. Hee
Mai, you want to know what was my first thought of you ? "She's kinda nerdy"
HAHA But I WAS WRONG !
She's such a crazy little bitch. HAHAHAHA * sorry mai ? :P
I LOVE THIS GIRL SO MUCH OKAY !
May our friendship lasts forever :)

It's the best feeling in the world when you meet new friends that you can't stand to be without :)

Mom can't handle me !

2010-11-06T03:39:00.000-07:00

HEY WAN NUR NABILAH BINTI ABU BAKAR SIDIK.

YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU HAVE TONS OF THINGS TO DO, SO YOU BETTER WAKE UP NOW !

DON'T FORGET THAT YOU HAVE AN EXAM ON THURSDAY !

MY DEAR, YOU HAVEN'T STUDIED ANYTHING ! DID YOU REALIZE THAT ?

OH GOSH. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

JUST WAKEEEEEEEEE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP !

Can you hear me ?

2010-11-06T01:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm. Ever since my dad has passed away my life hurts and I just want to die. I don't know how to cope without him. He used to be at home all the time and he was always there when I needed him. But now ;( I can't bear the thought that I will never see him again. NO WAY. I don't have anyone else ;( I lost my dad who I was very close to. Can someone please help me ? I just want to see his face again but not just as a memory. 4 months has passed but my life still doesn't get any better than this. FUCK MY LIFE. I feel so empty ;(

Hey boyfriend !

2010-11-03T09:39:00.000-07:00

Sweet :)

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• give her the world.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved
someone before :)

Happy family ! :)

2010-11-01T07:43:00.000-07:00

Hazzy, Aza, Ayesha Hanis and Atiqah :)

Zaty Ibrahim ! COMEL KAN ?

Look at them ! Cool kan ? HAHA Oh God I love them so much :)

Don't cry :)

2010-10-30T02:38:00.000-07:00

Rindu papa and am yang teramat sangat hari ini ;(

I'm not saying goodbye

2010-10-27T17:40:00.000-07:00

Too many arguments.

I'm sick of everything.

I wish I could let go and break down.

But I can't afford to,

And I don't think it would solve anything.

Therefore,

I think I need some space.

To think about us and forget everything.

We are not breaking up my dear.

We are just giving some space to each other.

Yes. We are still a couple.

And yeah I love you.

You know that right.

I won't disturb you anymore.

I'll talk to you when I'm ready okay.

Take care, love.

Don't waste your time by checking on my wall or twitter because you won't see anything :)

Do you remember ?

2010-10-24T16:31:00.000-07:00

I miss the guy who said this to me ;

Do u think I can live without u baby? I think about u every second baby. And it really hurts when u don't want to talk to me baby. I love u - Amardeep Singh Randhawa

She misses her dad ;(

2010-10-24T16:23:00.000-07:00

Papa I miss you so much :(

Since papa dah tak ada,

Siapa nak buat semua ni untuk saya ?

- Marah saya bila saya buat salah
- Comment setiap barang yang saya baru beli
- Puji saya atas kejayaan saya di hadapan ahli keluarga yang lain
- Hantar saya jika saya hendak ke mana-mana
- Masakkan saya Maggie goreng
- Masakkan mihun goreng yang penuh dengan kentang, fishball and MASIN.
- Masakkan saya lempeng yang nipis and rangup. Mama tak reti buat :(
- Bagi saya makan ubat kalau saya sakit.
- Ajar saya niat puasa every year sebab saya ni sangat-sangatlah bangang
- Bagi saya duit raya every year walaupun dia tak kerja dah
- Bawa saya balik kampung dan jalan-jalan kat Merlimau tu
- Bawa saya pergi bercuti kat Port Dickson every year
- Jadi tetamu VIP saya ketika majlis convocation saya nanti ;'(
- Jadi wali ketika majlis pernikahan saya nanti ?

NO ONE :(

Thank you, love :)

2010-10-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

I wish I had the guts to walk away
and forget about what we had.
But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me,
and I guess that's what hurts the most.

PIG & DOG

2010-10-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

HEY DOG !

I HAVE A SECRET TO TELL YOU !

PIG LOVES YOU ! VERY MUCH.

YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT ;

YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO HER.

YOU'RE LIKE A DRUG FOR HER.

SHE WANNA GROW OLD WITH YOU.

AND SHE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU.

SO PLEASE

PLEASE COME BACK.

I MISS THE ONE WHO USED TO TEXT ME JUST TO WISH ME "GOOD MORNING, BABY".

I MISS THE ONE WHO USED TO TELL ME " BABY I MISS YOU, LET'S MEET UP"

HAIH. I JUST MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, I STILL LOVE YOU AS THE WAY YOU ARE.
FOREVER ;)

You're the only one that I need :)

2010-10-19T23:20:00.000-07:00

You know what Amardeep Singh Randhawa ? I'm really starting to miss the old you.

COOL KAN ?

2010-10-17T04:37:00.000-07:00

One of my classmates :)

2010-10-17T03:52:00.000-07:00

WHAT DO YOU THINK ? :)

Awesome people :)

2010-10-01T03:54:00.000-07:00

Hey what's up ? :D

Its been too long since my last post right ? Hee but but I will not apologize for neglecting this blog. haha

New updates ?

Hmm okay let's start.

18th of August, kami genap setahun :) Believe it or not. HAHA
Pssss sayang ! Let me tell you one secret ! No matter what you do, no matter where you go, I just want you to know that I will always love you. Sayang you know that I am not a very romantic person. That's the truth. But I love you. Thats enough right ? I hope this relationship will last forever :)

Amar's birthday on the 17th of September.

Cupcakes that I bought for him :)

20th of September ? It was my dad's birthday ;(

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to Papa..
Happy birthday to you ;(

And the latest news ;

30th of September 2010 - Annual Dinner Business Society Uitm Jengka Pahang :)

How was it ? Hmm I think it was great, no ?
I had fun with my girls. Am I right girls ? :) *Boys too

I don't even know him actually. Haha What's your name ?

Sama KAN ? Ashraf Sinclair Jengka :) HAHA

HORROR ! I KNOW ! Pffft -.-

That's all for now. My pictures with others I will upload as soon as possible okay. Hahaha

HAHAHIHIHUHUHOHOHEHE :D

2010-09-03T09:28:00.001-07:00

HO HO HAPPY HOLIDAYS ! :D

I'm home babyy :) Well I'm in a good mood now people. So let's hangout ! Wee. I can't wait to lepak with those bitches and dogs again. My plans for these two weeks ?

Okay my to-do list;

Spend time with family
Spend time with Amardeep Singh Randhawa <3
Hangout with bestiessss :)
Ice Skating. wooot wooot ! :D
S.T.U.D.Y ! For real okay. And as usual, at OTWC ! :)
Do my assignments -.-
Shishashashasha :D HAHA

Okay that's all for now. HAHA :)

She's back :)

2010-08-27T21:05:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum & Hello my dear readers :)

I'm feeling better now ! hee :) I don't want to cry anymore. New spirit ! :D
I miss my friends. Where the hell are they ? Eh guess what, Muhazim is coming back soon ! Yeayyyyy ! So yeah I'm gonna irritate him by calling him EVERY SINGLE DAY ! hahaha. Vimel you too okay ! You guys better be prepared :P

Btw there's something that I want to share with all of you out there !

KEPUTUSAN PERMOHONAN BIASISWA DI BAWAH PROGRAM IJAZAH DALAM NEGARA 2010 !

Status : BERJAYA
No. Kad Pengenalan : 920112145792
Nama Penuh : WAN NUR NABILAH BINTI ABU BAKAR SIDIK
Universiti : UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA, PAHANG
Bidang : LAIN-LAIN
Kaedah Pengajian :

Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa saudara/saudari akan ditawarkan Biasiswa Persekutuan di bawah Program Ijazah Dalam Negara 2010 untuk mengikuti pengajian seperti di atas.

Syukur alhamdulillah. Study for free. Cool kan? haha. Actually hmmm I'm scared ! I must get 3.5 pointer EVERY SEMESTER. That is so not cool okay. But I'll try my best for my family. Promise :)

I'm strong. No ;(

2010-08-03T05:08:00.000-07:00

Wan Azhar (Am) & Wan Izad (Izad)
Pada tanggal 11 Ogos 2010, pergi seorang lagi insan yang sangat penting dalam hidup saya. Insan yang sentiasa ada dengan saya sejak saya dilahirkan ke dunia ini. Dia merupakan abang sulung saya, Wan Azhar atau lebih dikenali dengan panggilan Am. Arwah meninggalkan seorang isteri dan dua orang anak perempuan yang baru berusia 3 tahun dan 10 bulan.

Arwah abang saya menghembuskan nafas terakhir ketika di tempat letak kereta, Giant Bandar Kinrara. Ketika itu dia berada di dalam kereta dan hanya anak sulungnya, Wan Nur Safiyyah Batrisyia yang ada disampingnya. Menurut laporan doktor, dia meninggal dunia disebabkan masalah pernafasan. Paru-parunya telah rosak dan terdapat jangkitan di jantungnya. Hanya Tuhan sajalah yang tahu apa yang dilalui olehnya pada ketika itu.

Bagi mereka yang tidak tahu, arwah abang sulung saya mempunyai seorang saudara kembar, Wan Izad. Sejak kecil lagi, keluarga memanggil mereka dengan panggilan "si kembar".

Sekali lagi, saya berada di Jengka, Pahang ketika mendapat panggilan daripada isteri arwah. Tuhan sajalah yang tahu perasaan saya pada ketika itu. Lemah rasanya diri ini selepas mendengar khabar itu. Sesungguhnya berita itu sangat mengejutkan bagi kami sekeluarga kerana arwah masih muda dan kami tidak pernah tahu yang dia sedang sakit. Andainya kami tahu, pasti abang saya masih sempat diselamatkan. Namun sudah takdir Ilahi, jadi kami redha dengan pemergiannya.

Sebak hati ini apabila melihat wajah Izad. Kesedihan yang dirasainya tak mungkin dapat digambarkan. Menurut mama, ketika mereka menemui mayat arwah di tempat letak kereta itu, Izad seakan-akan tidak percaya bahawa Am sudah kembali ke rahmatullah. Terbaring Izad di sebelah arwah sambil menangis dan memeluknya ;(
Kesedihan mama, hanya Tuhan sajalah yang tahu.

Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku sudah tidak kuat lagi untuk meneruskan hidup ini. Hanya satu yang aku minta dariMu Ya Allah, bawalah aku pulang ke sisiMu kerana aku sangat merindui ayah dan abangku ;(

Without him ;(

2010-08-03T04:30:00.000-07:00

Hey awak ! Dah masuk bulan Ogos la ! :(

Tak lama lagi kita akan menyambut bulan Ramadhan. Lepas tu raya ! But semua kegembiraan dan kemeriahan untuk menyambut semua tu tak mungkin akan sama lagi. Tahun ni siapa nak bawa saya pergi bazar Ramadhan ? Siapa nak tolong beratur untuk beli murtabak yang ramai orang tu ? Siapa yang nak ketuk bilik saya pukul 4 petang untuk pergi bazar Ramadhan seawal tu ? Siapa ? Papa saya dah takde ;(

Raya tahun ni tiada makna langsung bagi kami sekeluarga. Entah macam mana la perasaan beraya tanpa mencium tangan papa sebagai ketua keluarga :( Entah macam mana la nak balik kampung papa tanpa dia. Saya mungkin boleh kuatkan diri untuk menempuh semua ni. But macam mana dengan mama saya ? Saya tak dapat bayangkan perasaan dia pada pagi raya tu. Biasanya papa yang akan kejutkan saya pagi raya tu. Tahun ni saya kena bangun sendiri. Sebaknya hati bila memikirkan semua ni ;(

Tak pernah terlintas di fikiran kami yang raya tahun lepas merupakan tahun terakhir kami menyambut raya bersamanya. Tahun terakhir kami menyambut hari jadinya ;(

CAMPING -.-

2010-08-03T04:19:00.000-07:00

NEWS NEWS NEWS !

We are having a camping this weekend. And I feel scared -.- I can't bring my phone. So can you just imagine ? Three days in a jungle without a phone ! I'm seriously gonna die :( Do pray for our safety yeah ? :) Not to forget I have ACCOUNTS TEST on saturday ! So wish me luck okay ! (:

I'm not a superwoman :)

2010-07-31T10:39:00.001-07:00

Hello bloggers :)

I'm back. With a new spirit. Life goes on. I'm pretty sure my dad doesn't want me to be sad anymore. I love him. But I'm sure God loves him more. And there's nothing I can do but pray for him. I gotta be strong for my mom and my siblings. I need to focus on my studies. My first test is just around the corner. I mean NEXT week ! :/

I feel scared. I'm scared if I can't do it. But I must get a good grades. I want my mom and my dad to be proud of me ! I don't really like management. Its something like history okay ! God please help me :( other subjects are not that easy though. But I still can handle them, don't worry :)

Back when life was easy, my life was just perfect. My family and my friends were always with me. All the time. But now life isn't that easy anymore. Now I'm all alone here. Therefore, I need someone that I can always talk to. Someone that I can share my problems with. Someone who always be there when I need him. I wish that someone could be YOU. Yeah I'm talking about you. I need you. Where are you ? I wish you were here :(

You guys asked me to stop crying ! But you guys didn't teach me how to stop. But how can I stop. We are talking about my dad here. The guy that I lived with for almost 18 years :( I'm just a normal girl. Who still needs her father to guide her. To tell her what you should do and what you shouldn't do. Haih. But this is life I guess :/ so unfair. Why me ?

I'm trying to act like I'm just fine and happy. But deep inside only God knows. Oh I really need your help here :(

The truth hurts ;(

2010-07-23T00:56:00.000-07:00

KENANGAN BERSAMA ARWAH :)

Papa saya seorang yang pendiam. Dia hanya banyak cakap kalau dia dengan keluarga terdekat je. Papa saya seorang yang pembersih dan kemas. Sejak kami lima beradik masih kecil dia lah yang selalu uruskan pakaian sekolah kami. Dia yang tolong gosokkan. Selalunya kitorang memang sengaja akan letakkan baju sekolah tu kat belakang. Buat buat lambat nak pergi sekolah. Nanti dia la yang akan gosok sambil membebel. Cakap je lebih tapi dia tetap tolong :) Baik kan papa saya ? Papa saya orang yang paling baik dalam dunia. Papa saya adalah yang terbaik :)

Selain tu, papa saya juga adalah seorang yang panas baran. Sangat panas baran. Fuh kalau dia mengamuk sampai nak baling kerusi. Haha. Comel kan dia. Saya ni pun jenis yang panas baran. Kadang-kadang saya memang tak dapat kawal kata-kata saya masa tengah marah. Saya ni juga ada satu masalah. Kalau saya pegang barang mesti jatuh. Kalau pegang air mesti tumpah. Arwah papa selalu marah. Ayat yang dia asyik cakap kat saya " Kau ni kalau pegang ape pun tumpah". Pasal ayat tu juga la saya pernah gaduh dengan dia. Saya ingat lagi. Masa tu papa belikan nasi ayam. Saya terjatuhkan plastik sup tu kat dalam cawan. Papa mengamuk. Saya cakap la " Ala dah terjatuh. Bukannya sengaja pun". Masa tu papa marah sangat. Dia nak baling kerusi. Saya buat tak layan je. Saya mengaku cuma saya la anak dia yang paling banyak melawan cakap. Tapi itu tak bermakna saya tak sayang dia. Saya sayang papa saya lebih dari nyawa saya sendiri. Seandainya Tuhan memberi saya pilihan, saya akan memilih agar nyawa saya yang diambil. Tak pernah saya membayangkan dia akan pergi meninggalkan saya secepat ini ;(

Papa saya ni seorang yang kelakar. Kami adik beradik selalu ketawakan dia. Haha. Jahatkan kitorang? Yela dia tu kadang-kadang tak tau tapi buat-buat tau. Tak pernah nak mengaku kesilapan dia. Haha. Saat-saat tu tak mungkin saya lupa. Kami sekeluarga setiap tahun pasti akan ke Port Dickson. EVERY YEAR ! Papa saya suka sangat pergi bercuti kat sana. Sejak saya kecil, setiap kali kitorang ke Port Dickson mesti akan menginap kat Blue Lagoon Condominium. Tahun ni pun kitorang ada bercadang nak ke sana ketika saya balik cuti semester. Malangnya tak sempat ;(

Sejak saya habis SPM, sayalah yang sentiasa menemani arwah papa saya di rumah. Tepat pukul 12 tengahari dia mesti akan ketuk pintu bilik saya.

"Aisya bangun cepat. Nak ikut abah pergi makan tak ? "

Dia suka sangat masakan orang Minang. Papa saya sangat suka makan rendang. Lagi-lagi rendang yang dimasak oleh orang minang. And papa saya tak suka makan masakan orang Indonesia. Saya pun sama :) Maaf kalau ade yang terasa. Tapi saya tak tipu. Ayah saya sangat anti dengan mereka ini. Every year, papa mesti akan sibuk suruh abang-abang saya pergi cari rendang untuk raya. Tahun lepas kami sambut raya dan birthday papa sekali.Seronok sangat. Kegembiraan tu tak mungkin akan sama tanpa papa saya. Tuhan jela yang tahu macam mana sambutan raya kami tahun ni. Raya tak mungkin lagi sama dengan ketiadaannya. Tahun ni saya terpaksa raya tanpa mencium tangan ayah saya. Tanpa sempat meminta ampun atas segala dosa yang pernah saya lakukan ;(

Papa saya tak mungkin ada penggantinya. Jujurnya saya masih belum mampu menerima hakikat ini. Saya sentiasa membayangkan papa saya masih lagi berada di hospital. Saya yakin dia pasti akan pulang ke rumah. Dia pernah cakap kat saya yang dia tak sakit. Dia nak pergi bercuti dengan saya. Dia mesti balik. Saya harapkan semua ini hanya mimpi buruk bagi kami sekeluarga. Papa, balik la. Aisya, mama, am, izad, dekwan and adib semua rindu kat papa ;(

Bila dia pergi,

2010-07-20T20:35:00.000-07:00

Seperti yang semua tahu. Ayah saya Abu Bakar Sidik Bin Mohd Amin telah pergi meninggalkan kita pada tanggal 20 Julai 2010. Arwah genap 60 tahun pada 20 September tahun ini. Ayahanda saya telah lama menghidap penyakit kanser. Bermula dengan kanser buah pinggang, kemudian merebak ke jantung dan ke otak. Dia sempat menjalani rawatan radiotherapy sebelum pemergiannya. Namun semuanya dah terlambat kerana kanser di otak tu dah pun memasuki peringkat yang terakhir. Ayahanda saya terlantar di hospital selepas menjalani rawatan itu kerana dia tidak lagi mampu berjalan dan menggerakkan tangannya. Sebak hati ini melihat tangan yang digunakan untuk menjaga kami lima beradik tak mampu lagi digerakkan. Apatah lagi melihat rambutnya gugur satu persatu ;(

Saya merupakan satu-satunya anak perempuannya dan saya adalah anak yang paling rapat dengannya selepas dia bersara. Saya yang sentiasa ada dengannya di rumah. Menemani arwah ke kedai untuk bersarapan dan makan tengahari. Arwah yang selalu menghantar saya ke rumah kawan-kawan saya. Ke tuisyen. Mengambil saya pulang dari library. Dia adalah segala-galanya bagi saya ;(

Dua minggu sebelum pemergiannya saya sempat berbual dengannya melalui telefon. Saya berada di Jengka dan dia berada di rumah ketika itu. Kata-katanya yang saya tak akan lupa,

Sya : Abah macam mana ? Sihat tak ?
Papa : Abah macam ni jugak la. Susah nak bergerak.
Sya : Abah sihat la cepat. Kata nak pergi bercuti dengan aisya.
Papa : Abah tengah cuba la ni. Nanti aisya balik cuti kita pergi okay.
Sya : Okay. Abah jaga diri tau. Sihat cepat.

Semalam Kak Long Irina sempat memberitahu saya "Papa selalu cakap kat kak long, aisya anak dia yang paling pandai. And dia bangga dapat anak macam aisya."

Sumpah saya terkilan yang teramat sangat. Saya pernah janji dengan dia yang saya akan pastikan dia dan mama saya menjadi tetamu yang istimewa ketika majlis convocation saya. Saya nak dia bangga sebab saya nak dia tengok saya dapatkan Anugerah Naib Canselor tu. Saya pernah janji nak dapatkan dean's list for every semester. Tapi saya tak sempat nak buktikan semua tu ;(

Tuhan sajalah yang tahu betapa sebaknya hati ini apabila mendapat panggilan dari Adib pagi semalam.

Adib : Sya, papa dah takde *sambil menangis*
Sya : Kau cakap apa ni ? Jangan main-main dengan aku !
Adib : Betul. Papa dah meninggal ;(
Sya : *menangis* aku balik sekarang jugak.

Ketika aku turun dari teksi, aku melihat saudara maraku berkumpul di luar rumah. Aku terus berlari dan ketika aku sampai di rumah aku terlihat jenazah ayahku.Aku terus memeluk mama dan menangis. Tak pernah aku melihat mama sesedih itu. Selemah itu. Tak pernah aku melihat abang-abangku menangis sebegitu. Dan tak pernah aku rasa duniaku segelap itu ;(

Sangat ramai yang datang untuk menziarah. Penuh surau itu ketika menyembahyangkan arwah. Jenazah selamat dikebumikan selepas solat Zohor di tanah perkuburan berhampiran rumah. Alhamdulillah.

Doa buat papa,

Ya Allah, Kau ampunkanlah dosa bapa ku dan Kau tempatkan lah dia di tempat orang-orang yang beriman. Kau jauhkanlah dia dari siksaan kubur dan api neraka. Permudahkanlah dia untuk menjawab soalan Munkar dan Nakir. Ya Allah, Kau jagalah dia sebagaimana dia menjagaku sejak aku lahir. Aku rela menanggung dosa-dosanya tetapi aku merayu padaMu janganlah Kau siksa bapaku. Amin.

Take me home.

2010-07-17T21:58:00.001-07:00

Why do I always care for other people's feelings until myself is hurt ? I don't know. I can solve any questions for maths but I just can't answer this simple question.

I love everyone. And I don't want to hurt people's feelings. But is there anyone who cares about me ? I don't think so.

I just feel so down lately. Everything seems so wrong. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just being too emotional. Maybe. Haih.

I wish my best friends were here. I need them. I really need them. Ama, Erma, Najwa, Myra, Eina, Khaleeda, Muhazim, Vimel, Shah, Adam and others, where are you guys ? ;(

Hmm. Now we've become strangers. Strangers with a past. And even though there are times I miss you, well, I can promise you that you will never see me again. Never. Yeah I said NEVER !

God, I'm hurting so bad, I can't hardly stand still. So I'm begging You today, please take me home.

IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON BABY ;)

2010-07-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

Well. There are so many things in my mind right now. Gosh. I can't think. My dad is in the hospital. I'm studying in a jungle. I mean UITM Jengka. Haha. And it is so far away from my house, my family and my friends. It kinda sad huh ? Sob sob ;( I have so many things to do. I have to study. I have to do my assignments. I just need someone that I can share my problems with. My friends are all busy with their lives. I'm all alone here. My dog ? Ermm he's gone. I don't think he will read my blog anymore. Well you know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. And yeah I do love him. But maybe he's not the one for me. Cause no matter how hard I try, I still can't make him happy. I'm such a loser. Kinda sad right. Haha. I know.

I don't want to think about him anymore. So now I've to move on with my life. Are you gonna find another guy to replace him babe? Hmm maybe. I think I already found someone who always be there when I need him. But I don't want to mention his name. Cause we are still in the process to know each other ;) For now, I just want to focus on my studies. That's the most important thing :)

So remember "If you really love something set it free. If it comes back it’s yours, if not it wasn’t meant to be" :)

Tears ;(

2010-07-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

Ramzi-Your Love Is Blind

I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mind
He leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care... how you feel...
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
I wanna see you out that door... cause girl you know you're worth much more

So baby tell me why you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wanna see you out that door

Ya azizi (my dear) ismaeeni (listen to me)
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujhko samjo dil pe mata lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wanna see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know what he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your love is blind

Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there is someone there for you
Someone there will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know you're worth much more
I wanna see you out that door

Ya azizi (my dear) ismaeeni (listen to me)
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujhko samjo dil pe mata lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wanna see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know what he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on
Girl your love is blind

Ya azizi (my dear) ismaeeni (listen to me)
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujhko samjo dil pe mata lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wanna see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on

HELLO UITM JENGKA ! :)

2010-07-04T06:47:00.000-07:00

emma aziz & ayesha hanis

classmates <3
First of all, let me tell you something ! I'm at UITM Jengka, Pahang right now ! I just want you guys to know that i miss you guys so much ! I miss my family. Especially my parents and my little brother, Adib :(

I miss hanging out with my best friends everyday. Sunway Pyramid laaa kan mana lagi ? haha. I miss ice skating so fucking much ! For your information, I'll be back home next friday ! wooooohoooooo ! So lets meet up people ! :D *excited*

Hows UITM Jengka ? Hows your roommates ? Hows your orientation week ? Stop asking me these questions. I'm bored. Ask me something elsa la. PLEASE ? haha. But let me answer all these questions first. UITM Jengka is quite big. So I have to walk like fucking far from my hostel to class. Damn it. My roommates ? They are all awesome people yaww ! HAHA. Especially Ayesha Hanis and Emma Aziz. I can't stop laughing when I'm with them. I feel like I don't need anyone else. *YOU do understand that KAN ?* :) But I still need my besties ! You guys know who you are right ? :) Oh yeah I have a new friend, Amira Aqilah :) She's super cool ! haha. Their pictures ? I'll update later okay ? :D Know what, I learnt something new here ! HAK HAK KATINGGGG TOK MANGGGG !*dengan slang kelantan* I can speak kelate deh ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Orientation week was damn tiring. But it was fun though :)

I like it here :) I don't really miss KUALA LUMPUR actually ! haha. All I need is all here :) Okay thats all for now. HAHA